Ok, this post was supposed to be posted a while back. I saved it as a draft and never published it then . I dunno why i didn't though. So I've newly editied it and  here it goes.

It's lyrics to a song that i personally expresses my feelings.

JUST SO YOU KNOW- by JESSE MCCARTNEY

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop


Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him[ LA ]win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go[ To manapal] 
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say [tht time i ws still officially ....]
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

[This is for Shasha]This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here [Thank God i no longer am waiting]

So this is the post i was missing.Gonna text you now to tell u i posted it already ;)

xoxo,

-b