It has only been 2 days after my 18th Birthday .So much has happened. I really hope that what i did will make it easier for someone to get through his problems. I did it for you Arran .With all the things you said the other day got me thinking that i'm just in the way for you to be the BEST you can.Because of that I'm such in bad shape right now. I totally regretted it but what's done is done. I don't want /can't be alone for a milisecond. I get all depressed and emotional. I can't even stand silence. Cried because of the silence in the car while driving to college this morning with Shailu as my co-driver and irratating Karthy in the back seat. Never  I once i imagine how this would ever feel because i never thought of being in this position. NEVER!!!

Though it might be good new for all those single guys who are interested in me - I'm not blardy interested. You guys can go F*** off.For real. I'm still very much in love with someone although we're not attached.I'm going to spend this whole one year finishing my HSC , applying for Uni (was thinking of Manipal bt someone told me not too ), travelling and definitely spend more time with mum and friends.  I'm thinking of travelling to UK early next year-spend time with my Aunt  Saro and my crazy cousin Sharmini. She so knows how to go out, have fun and  PARTY!! Or to Coimbatore , India to puruse music. There's just loads of talent there. Maybe even visit Arran if he allows/want me there. 

All i want now is for that one year to past like a blink of an eye or for me to take back all the words i said yesterday. I regret with what i have done.  I never want to lose someone so precious and dear to me who i love so much .I really want someone back. I really want to  have u in the picture again. 

Laters.xoxo

Labels: single-hood